Keeping up with the Cool Kids – My Love Hate Relationship with Running

0ca84a0ffb73490363e3d20d8405f2d2Last night I badly bruised my toe running into a hotel bathroom trying to prevent the room service guy from seeing me in my underwear – long story.  It hurts like a son of a (insert strong word of choice here).  And it made me start wondering if it would prevent me from running today. I know that a bruised toe doesn’t sound like much but I once saw an Edmonton Oiler being wheeled into an emergency room on a stretcher straight to the front of the line – in front of my friend who was waiting for someone to attend to her broken ankle. Turned out he also had a bruised toe.

So I think my toe should at least get me a day’s pass from running.  Cause the truth is I don’t like running. I want to like it. I want to love it. I want to be the person who can turn their mind off and just run and run and run.  I want to feel alive not half dead as I run but the fact is I don’t. My bodacious ta’ta’s alone make it hard to run, the well-endowed girls amongst you will be able to relate. This body was not built for running. Swimming yes. Cycling maybe. Running not really.

So you might ask why I bother. I ask myself that all the time too. Why did I announce to the world that I want to run a half-marathon this year if I don’t even like running?

Part of me wants to keep up with the cool kids. The long lean running machines that you see in packs running everywhere through Edmonton’s river valley. Wearing the oh-so-stylish running room jackets with the little butt splash protectors and black running tights. A male friend (who wishes to remain anonymous) swears that women run just so they can wear cool running clothes.  Good call on going anonymous.

Let’s face it running is an “it” exercise these days along with other health trends such as yoga and meditation. There’s a push for everyone to do the latest and greatest exercise and then there’s the ones who spread the word with almost religious zeal. “You have to try it, I can’t believe the difference to my (sense of well being, butt, quads, sex life etc.)”  But realistically running won’t be for everyone.

e27ea17d98cefb718ee0d026301e70b2But despite this hard earned wisdom I still want to run. Part of me wants admission to the exclusive club of runners. Part of me wants to do it because it’s something that I can’t do yet. In an earlier blog I described where I was this time last year, not being able to run longer than a minute at a time. Now I’m up to 5 km. At one point I could run it non-stop but I slacked off over the winter and now I need to run/walk to finish 5k. And yes I realize I am far far away from my goal of a half marathon.  But as the picture says, “If running is difficult run more.” So that’s what I’m going to try to do, run more.

There’s a quote I love about running by Mark Weber, “Running is real and relatively simple, but it ain’t easy.” And I think that’s part of the attraction of running. It is simple. You don’t need much in the way of gear. You don’t need a gym. You can leave your front door and go, and it’s a great cardio workout in a short period of time. You can do it alone, with a partner or a whole group of people. And I have to say unlike other athletic past times I have never been dissed by another runner. Most on the running paths are kind and share more of a “you-go-girl” attitude then one of condescension towards a neophyte runner trying her best.

Dawson bridgeA friend said that she doesn’t like running but she likes the feeling after she’s ran. And I must say I agree. Running also helps me achieve my goal of keeping my depression at bay. And I like where my runs take me. Last summer running through the river valley I saw some really gorgeous sites that I wouldn’t have seen if I hadn’t been running. Another quote by Kara Goucher sums up my attitude to running, “That’s the thing about running: your greatest runs are rarely measured by racing success. They are the moments in time when running allows you to see how wonderful your life is.” And it does. I can recall several runs last year when this feeling of all is right in the world descended upon me.  So for that reason alone I will keep running.
But if anyone has any advice on how to just turn your mind off and run I’m all ears cause I really need an excuse to buy some new running clothes.


  1. I felt like you were in my brain when you wrote this. I too want to love running… i am not there. Yet.

  2. Tmommy says:

    I feel the same. Some people talk about running like its a religious experience – not me. I do it for the way I feel afterwards. It also eases my depression and anxiety. I am starting again after taking a break from January to April. I want to like it but….


  3. Jennifer Blum says:

    I echo these thoughts exactly. I want to love running and feel like I was made for running. I dream of running a marathon one day (that’s a 15 year goal), but haven’t done a half marathon in a number of years. It’s a love/hate relationship for me. I took 8 months off after hurting my foot (probably from undertraining, not overtraining), and it’s a struggle to get back to it. I’m already behind in my 10k clinic, and I’m only halfway through. I still dream of being one of those people who just doesn’t feel a day is complete without a run, who is DYING to get out there by the end of the work day. Alas, the couch still feels more comfy than my running clothes. I haven’t given up hope yet, though.

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