Jen Banks’ 90 Day Challenge: Big Lessons

What matters most is how you walk through fire.Exercise has given me so much. Time for myself, reflection and strength. Without this 90 day challenge, I wouldn’t have had the moment of clarity and strength where I decided to end my almost 10 year marriage.

This moment of clarity also brought on a whirlwind of emotions, to-do lists and crazy amounts of stress. My normal reaction to stress is: panic attacks, vomiting, anxiety and a lot of cleaning.

In typical fashion, I panicked, freaked out, cried, got hives and cleaned. I couldn’t keep food down and I forced a lot of caffeine into my body to keep going. Literally running on empty.

Because I’m stubborn, I kept going to bootcamp. I needed the routine and support system. I needed to push the stress, anxiety out of my body.

As I pushed, my body pulled back.

I started losing weight from a lack of food and dehydration. My body was in survival mode.

Last week, I ended up sick. Really sick. Bacterial infection in my lungs that required antibiotics, a puffer for the wheezing and cough syrup with codeine. I was forced to do nothing but rest and relax.

The human body never ceases to amaze me. I couldn’t push through the cycle of anxiety, panic and vomiting myself, so my body taught me a lesson.

I’m on day 4 of “do nothing” and I’m super bored, but I realize how much I needed this time. I’m eating again and I’m looking forward to getting my healthy body back to the gym.

I don’t have a new picture or bootcamp update for this week, but I do have a healing body, plenty of support and as many hugs from my little girls as I can handle. I’m finally in a good place and I’m ready to kick ass on the next 6 weeks of this challenge.

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